GermanyxReader: Just Like She Was

***This is a Germany x Reader. It's based off of a song I love called 'May'. So if you've heard the song, you know what's coming! If not, you will have a vague idea of what happens in the song. Please enjoy~


"_____!"

Twirling around upon hearing the voice of your seven-year-old best friend, you bounded over to join him by the old swing set.

"Ludwig! Do you feel better? Momma said you were sick!"

"Ja," he replied with a small smile. "I'm feeling a lot besser."

You grinned back. "That's great!"

There was a short yet comfortable silence between you two. But heeding the beck and call of the swing set behind you, you asked, "Want to swing?" before grabbing Ludwig's hand and proceeding to tug him along, barely hearing the mumbled "Ok…", and definitely not noticing the tiny blush creeping up his cheeks.

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"Where the hell is he?"

Sitting next to you on the bench, Ludwig checked his watch. "I don't know. He vas supposed to be here ten minutes ago. Sometimes I vonder how we're even related."

"Gil is such an idiot sometimes."

Being only freshmen in high school, you and Ludwig, now your boyfriend, had to rely on his older brother Gilbert for transportation. Oh how you wished for the day when you could drive yourself. You loved Gil like a brother, but sometimes he could be just plain unreliable. Spotting the albino's car out of the corner of your eye, you stood up. "Finally, he's here!"

"Oh Gott he's got his friends vith him," Ludwig groaned, catching sight of Antonio and Francis while grabbing his backpack.

"That explains the delay," you replied, grabbing your backpack as well, just as the car door opened.

"_____! We haven't seen you in forever chica!"

"You two saw me yesterday Toni! In fact, you see me almost every day." Laughing, you climbed into the backseat, followed closely by Ludwig.

"Ah but chéri, every second we don't see you is like an eternity!"

"Alright alright shut up you two." Gilbert grinned at you, turning around in the front seat. "Sorry zhe me is late. We had some… business to attend to."

Ludwig scoffed back. "I'm sure it vas very important. Now can we get going? _____ and I have a project to vork on."

"Aren't you a bit young for zhat, West? Kesesesese!" Gilbert joked as he started up the car again. This caused all three older guys to burst out laughing, leaving you and Ludwig blushing, each quietly relying on the other for sanity on that insane ride home.

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Moving into your new house had been a pain in the butt. But it had been done. Having been happily married for a year and a half, you and Ludwig had been living in this comfortable house for two months now. What's more, you were also five months pregnant!

You stood at the sink, elbow deep in soapy water, doing the dishes.  Ludwig came up quietly behind you and wrapped his arms around your waist.

"Let me do zhe dishes _____. You should rest."

"I'm not that incompetent yet, Luddy." Nevertheless, you pulled your arms out of the sink and dried them on a nearby towel, laughing lightly. "But now that I think about it, I am a bit tired."

"My point exactly." Looking into your eyes, he continued. "I swear, you hold zhe sun in your eyes."

"I must be the sun to your sky then," you chuckled slightly at your own cheesy joke, gazing back into his sky blue eyes. You pulled him down into a kiss. "I love you so much."

Ludwig smiled too. "Und ich liebe dich. Now go rest." He shooed you off and turned to finish the dish project. You laughed and headed into the living room, to have your husband join you after a short while.

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Muffled, agonizing screams reached Ludwig's ears and he tensed. He wished he could be in that room by _____'s side right now, holding her, supporting her, comforting her. But only the doctor and few nurses were allowed in at this point.

Ludwig stood up as a nurse walked out. "How is she?"

"_____? She's doing well." The nurse smiled. "It's a girl."

"A girl…" he breathed.

Suddenly the door slammed opened and the doctor stuck his head out. "We're losing her!"

"V-vhat?!"

But the doctor had already disappeared, with the nurse close behind. Ludwig immediately followed.

_____ lay there, barely moving and breathing shallowly. He rushed to her side.

"_____! _____, look at me!"

You blinked, turning to look at him slowly. Ludwig could barely see the 'sun' in your eyes, they were so faded. He stroked the hair off your face.

"Let me… see the… baby," you could barely get the words out.

The nurse holding the child glanced at the doctor. He nodded. She proceeded to hand the girl to Ludwig, who in turn gently held up your daughter for you to see. Softly touching her head, you whispered, "She's beautiful."

Ludwig felt a hand on his shoulder: the doctor.

"She's not going to make it. There's nothing we can do. I'm sorry. Truly, I am." And he left the room, followed by the nurses.

The German looked back to you, despair filling his heart. "_____-"

"I know Ludwig. I… can feel it." You squeezed his hand.

"_____, you can fight zhis, stay strong. Our daughter needs you. I need you."

You shook your head. "No Ludwig. I can't. I'm not… strong enough." You struggle to kiss your small child and then your husband before collapsing back down onto the hospital bed.

"Bitte, _____. Please. Ich liebe dich. I love you too much," he pleaded, panicking slightly now, seeing that your sun was setting fast.

"I love you… too, Ludwig. Watch over her…"

Barely even whispers. Oh Gott no. Ludwig thought. But her sun was set, never to rise again.

"_____..."

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"Daddy?"

"Ja, mein liebling?" Ludwig pulled his daughter into his lap. "Vhat is it?"

"Why don't I have a Mommy?"

He cringed. He knew this would come one day, just had not expected it to come so soon. Ludwig looked at his daughter and was startled. She has _____'s eyes. Why had he not noticed this before?

"You do have a mother. She's just… not here."

"Why?"

Gott, how do I explain zhis? "Your mother left. She didn't vant to, and now she can't come back. She loves you very much zhough. Just like I do."

"Oh… okay," came the reply. The six-year-old girl was lost in thought.

Ludwig watched her. She's just like she vas. Zhere's even a sun in her eyes. It's barely zhere, but I can see it. He couldn't take the sudden memories his daughter brought up about his late wife.

"Time for bed, liebling," he said and picked her up. Walking down the hall, he set her down in bed and kissed her forehead.

"Night…" she mumbled, already sleepy.

"Guten nacht," Ludwig whispered, shutting the door. Then, exhausted from the rush of memories, he went into the bedroom he used to share with _____ and wept.

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Twenty years later, Ludwig couldn't have been more proud. His little girl was getting married. It pained him to let her go, but he had tried to raise her right, and was glad to see his efforts pay off.

He straightened his tie as his daughter walked out.

"You look beautiful." He kissed her and held out his arm. "Ready?"

"Dad, I was born ready."

She smiled, took his arm, and together they proceeded down the isle as the familiar music started to play.

Ludwig glanced at his smiling daughter. Gott she really does look just like _____... And she did. With the same glossy (h/c) hair pulled back and the same (e/c), sunny eyes, combined with her excited smile, the young woman looked just like her mother.

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"Wow, bruder. She looks just like _____ did on your wedding day. Acts like her too." Gilbert came over to stand by Ludwig as they watched the newly wedded couple dance.

"Ja… Ja, she does," he replied. Eventually Gilbert wandered off again.

"_____... I hope you can see this," Ludwig said quietly.

"Don't worry, Ludwig. I can."

_____? Ludwig looked around and gasped. There. The palest outline of _____ was standing right next to him, smiling, the sun in her eyes shining bright.

Just like you always had.